There’s a darkish motive for Billie Eilish’s signature look.
The Grammy-winning 18-year-old says she typically doesn’t really feel enticing to the folks she dates, and in consequence, clothes in saggy garments.
“Right here’s a bomb for you: I’ve by no means felt desired,” Eilish tells GQ in an interview revealed Thursday. “My previous boyfriends by no means made me really feel desired. None of them. And it’s an enormous factor in my life that I really feel I’ve by no means been bodily desired by any person.”
In response to this, the singer clothes in garments that don’t exhibit her physique, with a view to disguise it from the world and its judgments.
“I costume the way in which I costume as I don’t like to think about you guys — I imply anybody, everybody — judging it, or the scale of it,” says Eilish.
Some days, although, she feels assured sufficient to make an exception: “However that doesn’t imply that I gained’t get up someday and determine to put on a tank high, which I’ve achieved earlier than.”
Eilish has been tight-lipped about her love life since changing into well-known. However she’s not too long ago devoted extra consideration to problems with physique picture. She took to YouTube in Could, posting a now-viral short film known as “Not My Duty,” depicting her virtually solely eradicating her black tank high. The response to the movie was not precisely stunning — however she was OK with it, she mentioned.
“Effectively, I try this and out of the blue my boobs are trending on Twitter. Which is okay — that s–t appears to be like good,” the “Unhealthy Man,” singer instructed GQ.
The slut-shaming that adopted Eilish posting a uncommon swimsuit picture, nonetheless, was much less encouraging. “There have been feedback like, ‘I don’t like her anymore as a result of as quickly as she turns 18 she’s a whore.’ Like, dude. I can’t win,” she instructed Dazed journal after the January incident.
Her wardrobe has thus grown right into a spectrum of types so she will costume to suit her every day temper, however the big selection of appears to be like she sports activities additionally makes her really feel trapped.
“Generally I costume like a boy. Generally I costume like a swaggy lady. And generally I really feel trapped by this persona that I’ve created, as a result of generally I feel folks view me not as a lady,” she says.
Whereas her relationship together with her physique is complicated, she additionally feels empowered by the management she is aware of she has over it, and the way a lot of it she needs to indicate to the general public.
“[My] physique is mine and yours is yours. Our personal our bodies are sort of the one actual issues that are really ours. I get to see it and get to indicate it once I need to,” she says.